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Post by squirrel on Oct 13, 2011 1:20:39 GMT -5
Zarek narrowed his eyes at his brother "This is not her turf. I wouldn't dare bring her here, that man would have killed her" he said walking over to he fridge to get something to drink other then water "This lady at an apartment complex kept her safe for me till I could get out on my own and now I live in that apartment complex and have since I turned 18" he said turning around with a glass of milk in hand and leaned on the counter top. He wasn't looking at his brother but in his direction, eyes at the ground watching Lolita sniff Adam. 'This is some what nice' he thought though he was wondering when the nice conversation was going to turn into an argument.
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Post by shazzy on Oct 13, 2011 18:53:08 GMT -5
Adam looked at Zarek suprised at just how much his brother took his words out of context. " I meant. " He began. " How she is here now...not to mention Jasper is a dog. Let's agree to disagree on this one. I'd rather my dog not eat your cat." He muttered. " So this will be Lolita's turf. " He explained. As Lolita sniffed him he leant forward scratching her ear softly. " If that's cool with you I think I'd rather just Lolita here anyway."
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Post by squirrel on Oct 13, 2011 19:05:49 GMT -5
Zarek rolled his eyes, he didn't care what animals were here but if Adam didn't want to bring his dog here that was fine with him. "Lolita can handle her own, she was a stray after all" he said pushing off the wall and walking through the kitchen to the backyard. Yea that was all he could handle from his brother. He just wanted to coddle him didn't he, he wasn't a kid anymore and he didn't like the fact that his brother was treating him like one now. He walked out into the backyard and closed his eyes, this was his place to play when he was younger. His mother on the porch watching him as he played. But all he could remember was that, no one else. His brother wasn't there and neither was his step-father. It was just him and his mother. That was a good time in his life and wished that he could bring it back.
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Post by shazzy on Oct 13, 2011 20:51:02 GMT -5
Adam just exhaled a deep breathe as he kept himself calm. Seriously was the entire six months going to be like this? He could very well nearly cut the tension with a knife and it was doing his head in ever much so. Not bothering to grace Zarek with an answer he stood up and moved to his old bedroom.
The room was an eyesore with it's bare walls and basic bed but what ever it would do for now. Sitting on the edge of the bed he fell silent deep in thought. Was nothing he did right? He was trying to fix their relationship as it was just the two of them left and still Zarek wouldn't have a bar of it.
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Post by squirrel on Oct 13, 2011 21:08:30 GMT -5
Zarek looked back at the house remembering his mothers words. 'Don't judge those who do what they can' rang clear in his head and he hated those words right now. He didn't want to forgive his brother, he didn't want to play nice just cause they were forced to live together for 6 months just so they could sell off the house of their childhood. But is that what he would do if he won the house. Could the good memories out weigh the bad ones enough for him to chose to stay in his childhood home. He turned and walked back into the house looking around and didn't need a guess to where his brother was.
He made his way to the back of the house where the bedrooms where and stopped at the doorway. Could he really just let the past go for a few months to make things easier? But his brother never did that for him growing up, he just made them harder. He had to take a deep breath to calm himself and let it go for the moment. He leaned against the door "Do you remember when mom use to give us advice when we didn't want it?"
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Post by shazzy on Oct 13, 2011 21:25:42 GMT -5
Adam stretched out on the bed his eyes closed as he remaind deep in thought. It was still unsettling being in the house. Maybe that was something he'd have to work on for him to be comfortable once more here.
A movement at his door ...no his old bedrooms door and he raised his head taking a look at Zarek. " Hmm." He agreed. " She was good for that. You didn't want to here it but at the same time it was exactly what you wanted...like when I started skipping school. She told me In her own suttle way i was an idiot. Definitely didn't want to here that at the time..but you know she was right."
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Post by squirrel on Oct 13, 2011 21:39:07 GMT -5
He nodded his head remembering that time but he couldn't look at his brother. His eyes were still on the ground as he tried to figure out how to say this without it coming out wrong. "I'm not going to apologize for how I've been acting and I'm not going to accept the fact that you are dating my ex and didn't have the gull to tell me but..." he took a deep breath and tried to look at his brother "But something that mom said to me a long time ago some how applies to this situation and I find that if I don't listen things are going to get much worse. So in order for these next 6 months to go by smoothly I am willing to put my anger and hostility towards you away but that doesn't mean it's not there" he said hoping that his statement didn't come off the wrong way. He was just being honest and trying to do right by his mother no matter how upset and pissed off he was. "And you can tell Jade that I won't snap at her anymore and that she is welcome to come and stay for as long as she wants and I will not get in the way of your relationship"
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Post by shazzy on Oct 13, 2011 21:48:37 GMT -5
Adam sat up slowly as Zarek began to talk. Really it was about time they had this conversation. They'd put if off for some time. " I didn't ask you to apologise." His brothers words stung a bit but he realised he had the right to say them.
Still there was so much anger involved would they even be able to get past it. Trust his mothers words to bring light to the situation. Helping them even in her death " Okay." It was a start he could be happy with that. At the mention of Jade though he looked at Zarek. " Thank. " He said. To be honest he had his doubts about Jade. She didn't want to be in this place and had made that quite clear to him but now he wasn't clear on where that left their relationship/
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Post by squirrel on Oct 13, 2011 21:55:42 GMT -5
He sharply nodded his head and then looked around for another minute and realized that things were starting to get a little awkward. "Alright, since that's taken care of" he said and then just turned to walk out of the hallway. He made his way to the living room and sat down on the couch trying hard not to snap at the moment. Even though he said that he was going to play nice it was a bit harder then he thought. His brother didn't even say anything, nothing that would help out the situation or even try to acknowledge what happened when they were little. He took a deep breath and stared at the black tv screen.
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Post by shazzy on Oct 13, 2011 22:06:58 GMT -5
Adam realised now that he was the one being the asshole but holy hell...this wouldn't ammend itself over night would it. With a sigh he stood up following Zarek out into the living room. Standing akwardly for a moment he ran a hand through his hair. " I left alright..it was wrong but I had to get out. I can't change that...I don't know what to do. Your my brother. You're the only family I have.." Shaking his head he sighed. " So is it so wrong of me for just wanting a relationship with my brother?"
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Post by squirrel on Oct 13, 2011 22:30:04 GMT -5
Zarek closed his eyes tightly shut at his brothers words, this was exactly what he was trying to avoid. He didn't want to get worked up at the little things, he wanted to be calm when he talked to his brother but that didn't help at all. He took a deep breath, opened his eyes and stared at the wall thinking of his mother so he wouldn't sound angry. Hell he was trying was the best thing he could think of. "Leaving is understandable and I don't blame you for that, leaving me behind to rot on my own I fault you for" he said this time standing up and facing his brother. Tears at the brim of his eyes as he held them back "But you can't honestly believe that just by showing up here that I would just open my arms for you, that I would just forget everything and think it was all better cause you came back" he was surprised at himself for how calm he was being though minus the fact that he was about to cry he was so angry that his brother couldn't see why. "I could not leave this place for four years after you left. Four years by myself with that monster. No mother to hold me at night, no brother to stay up late with me while I was told everything was going to be ok. A child left alone to fend for himself, to feed himself, to mend broken bones and a shattered spirit. I had to watch as mother died and I watched as my only brother walked out on me and leave me to my death in the hands of that psycho" he was out of breath he talked so fast, his heart racing remembering the day he saw his brothers back as he walked away. "I cannot just forget all of that" Zarek turned away from his brother to wipe at his eyes. He wasn't going to cry in front of his brother, he was much to old now for anything like that and his brother didn't deserve tears in his eyes. Zarek believe that his brother only deserved hatred.
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Post by shazzy on Oct 13, 2011 22:37:57 GMT -5
It was so painfully obvious how much Zarek hated him. Standing in the living room Adam blinked his eyes his shoulders slumping forward some. His own brother hated him. Why did everything have to be so damned fked up. " I couldn't take you..." He said. " Not with me. I lived on the streets for a while. You needed a roof over your head. I did what I thought was the best at the time. Maybe it was selfish but I was a kid then to remember."
Noticing his brothes tears really tore at his conscious. " No. I don't expect you to either. If after this we still don't have a relationship then it wont be for my lack of trying Zarek." He wasn't going to play games. He was willing to give it a shot and therefore realise it probably would be a slow process their friendship but if Zarek had no potential interest in it, then so be it.
" I don't want you to forget it. I want, if possible to try and be your brother. If that means it takes six months for us to trust eachother again. Then fine." Why could Zarek not see he was trying his best here.
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Post by squirrel on Oct 13, 2011 22:42:24 GMT -5
He could understand that and when he felt that he wasn't going to cry he turned around to face his brother. Zarek held out his hand to his brother "Then this is a partnership as of now. We both have the same goal as of now so why don't we make an agreement now that we can actually talk. If at the end of the 6 months and neither of us have left we will sell the house and split the money" he said still trying to figure out if he would be able to form another family relationship with his brother and see him as that once again. He couldn't help but feel that this was just a person that he was linked to by blood and nothing more.
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Post by shazzy on Oct 13, 2011 22:47:21 GMT -5
Adam nodded his head slowly sticking out his hand. If a partnership was what it would be then he'd stick with it. If anything it let to the chance for a friendship to grow. Holding his brothers hand he looked up into Zareks eye. " Could you really sell it though?" He asked. " I hate this place...but the memories are here of mum."
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Post by squirrel on Oct 13, 2011 23:07:00 GMT -5
They shook hands and he planned on pulling his hand back quickly but froze there and stared at his brother. Then he went from staring to glaring and pulled his hand back sharply. "I am not keeping this place either way. I want to rid myself of all the bad shit that man put me through. What I hold of mother is in my mind, she still lives on and no type of material item will force me to remember what that monster put me through just to hold onto her memory" he said turning away from his brother once again and sat down on the couch.
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